Am I just not interested in a relationship?

I'm 19 year old dude and never been in a relationship. It's been hard for me coz I'm kinda on the Aspergers Syndrome side, and it's hard to even TALK to people. My only real hobbies are just working out and playing video games. Barely any friends in there because I've never really liked other people. Every friendship that I've been in has been kinda depressing. I just don't know who to talk to! I know it sounds stupid, but that's because it really is. People judge other people instantly, but for me it takes me a while. My guess is finding a relationship is easier because you are in love with them, but I only feel love from other men. I seriously don't want to be! I've spent all my life just hating myself because I suck at socializing, I suck at making decisions for myself, I suck at the things many people consider "easy" and maybe have some sort of way to get past those issues, and I'm gay. My life sucks >:(